One of my favorite movies in the entire world is the animated feature, The Last Unicorn. Many of the lines in the movie stayed with me as I grew older. One of my favorite quotes is from the song That’s All I’ve Got to Say:
I’ve had time to write a book
About the way you act and look
But I haven’t got a paragraph
Words are always getting in my way
I’m not one of the best writers in the blogsphere. In fact, I feel that writing is one of my weaknesses. I have all of these wonderful thoughts and images when I read a novel. All of my feelings are churning and and pouring out as I read a wonderful book. I don’t so much read as I experience my stories. When I’m finished, I can’t wait to spill out my hypothetical guts to the world.
However, I hit a wall when I sit down to prepare my reviews. The words trip me up. I never can find the best descriptions for my feelings, or put down my thoughts onto paper (or, in this case, electronic pages).
I stumble over my own inadequacy in language. I hate writing reviews because it is seriously the hardest thing for me to express my emotions. Words and phrases seem to strangle what I am trying to say. I’m thankful that I have gifs to fall back on when I need to express something when my vocabulary lets me down. I was shocked when I was speaking with another blogger about this issue, and we were discussing how hard it is to put yourself down into words.
I read so many reviews by other bloggers and always think, “How do so many other bloggers write these wonderful reviews?” I’m not asking for pity or reassurance, because I will still have this sense that I just can’t cut it, because I AM HORRIBLE WITH LANGUAGE. My mind wanders, and so do my reviews. I often get confused with homophones and other such tricks, and I proofread as well as I can run a 30 mile marathon.
There are some major hurdles that I face when it comes to communication in general. Social anxiety is still an overwhelming problem, even on the internet. Dyslexia is another major issue that I face. I’ve always faced issues with reading and writing due to my condition. I’ve come a long way with these concerns, but they still plague me and dampen some of the fun in my hobby.
I get so frustrated with blogging at times because writing saps me and sometimes makes me feel horrible about my own abilities as a blogger. In books, the words are my allies and my friends, my lovers and my world. When it comes to reviews, the words are my enemy and my jailer. I often wonder why it is so terribly difficult to dictate my genuine thoughts and reactions to a story.
Do you have any downfalls in blogging? Do you get frustrated with reviews? Do you ever look over your work and think, “I thought this was going to be better!” Do you have an alternative to review writing?