Top Ten Tuesday is hosted by The Broke and the BookishThis week’s theme: Blogging Confessions
Group hug? Group hug time. We all have some things that we always wanted to confess, or talk about, or even blurt out in a rash, misspelled Tweet. Lucky for us all, this week’s Top Ten topic allows us to emotionally vomit out some deep-seeded feelings lurking in the deep.
1. I’ve been in a reading slump. It’s been about six months long, honestly, ever since I read Cruel Beauty. I’ve been reading at basically half my normal pace, and my average rating for the year is 3.3. It’s been really sad and has made me lose confidence as a blogger. Luckily though, things have been perking up and I’ve been reading a LOT of awesome books. I hope the trending towards positive continues.
2. Sometimes I feel like quitting. It’s not a serious feeling and I never ACTUALLY think I’m going to follow through with it. But sometimes I feel so down about my shitty reading (see point 1) or with how constricting blogging sometimes feels. I know I’ll be blogging for a long time, though, but sometimes I just get down on myself.
3. I buy multiple copies of the same books. Honestly, it’s a problem. I buy hardcovers for a lot of arcs I read, which I don’t see being that bad. But I have multiple different editions of books I love. I wasn’t always like this at all, but now it’s like a fever!
4. I really dislike reviewing sequels. First of all, it’s just hard. It’s hard to assess characters you already know. And it’s hard to review each book as its separate entity and not go overboard on comparing it to other books in the series. But also? I don’t feel like sequel reviews get read as much because people are afraid of being spoiled.
5. I’m so bad at following/commenting. I looooooooove book blogs (obviously.) There are a ton that I follow in various ways from email to Bloglovin. But there are also a lot that I just type into my address bar and visit that way without ever actually following – and this is mostly true for bloggers I consider friends, those I talk to all the time on Twitter. And as much as I visit blogs (seriously, like 25 per day) I hardly EVER comment. What is wrong with me? This is my public vow to be better about both these things!
1. Writing book reviews is the least favorite thing – I hope this doesn’t sound horrible. I love talking about books, making lists, getting exciting over book feels online, looking over future releases, compare notes, contemplate the quality of book-inspired movies, and, of course, reading. When it comes to reviews, I have a very very VERY hard time putting my thoughts into words. I do my best to write some quality reviews, and some of them are fun, and some of them were easy, but it is the hardest part of the “job”.
2. BEA saved me – I thought I was near my end game prior to BEA. I was feeling burnt out. I didn’t see the enjoyment of blogging. I felt out of place and blogging felt like a chore. I was also going through a lot in my life at that point, and my depression and anxiety was completely out of hand and off the radar at this point. But I had lost my passion for blogging, and I knew I was a horrible person for wanting to walk away. BEA helped me understand why I do this: because I love the people, and I love the books. BEA, in all seriousness, was life-changing for me, for the better.
3. I skim other’s reviews – to keep away from the spoilers. I love reading review for books I have read before, but I find that I skim reviews of books I have never read. If I have the book ready to read, then I tend to look at the rating and keep going.
4. I am ashamed of my book count – I find it amazing when I knock out over 50 books in a year. However, when I see others reading 100 to 300 books, I internally worry and wonder what I can do to help my reading speed. Then I get upset with myself and buy more books than I need. Because, dammit, if I can’t READ 100 books in year, then I can BUY a 100 books in a 365 day period!! I know that I have a full time job, attend the gym, and have a naturally slow reading speed, but it still irks me at times to see my piddly numbers.
5. Blog ranking – I seriously could not image doing this solo. I was very lucky to have Kara let me join a blog that was already rooted in the community. Her blog was wonderful from the start. Then we added Bekka, someone who had a name for herself in the field. Then there is me. I see myself as the awkward freshman at the senior party. I often compare myself to a B-list blogger, and I feel slightly inferior. Horrible, horrible thoughts, but it crosses my mind sometimes.